Josh Axelrad used to be a professional gambler, counting cards. Now, he’s a writer and a dad. 

Once he stopped playing blackjack professionally, and started playing poker badly, he lost $50,000.

“I thought it was impossible that the 50 Gs I’d succeeded in vaporizing would ever come my way again,” he says.

This is the story of his crash, and how he was made whole again.

You can listen to Josh’s crash story in the audio player above. To hear a longer version, visit The Moth.